I think I could start every blog post with the sentence "Life is nonlinear." and it would be appropriate.
I give so much of myself in words to the often nameless and generally unresponsive public that a disconnect exists. Yesterday after work I was stressed out because work was not going as smoothly as I desired so I turned my phone off and went on a 40 mile bicycle ride. For the first time I can remember a workout over two hours did not clear my head. (Typically in longer runs and bicycle rides I have time to think about my life and come to conclusions about past events and future needed actions.) It may have taken longer than I desire to have something to say worth saying today and yesterday, but here it is.
Thank you for caring, for reading, for listening, for not interrupting me as I trail off into mumbling about something you find boring. Additionally, I'm sorry that I have failed you. I'm sorry I did not do what you expected. Unfortunately, I have failed so many times that I realize I will fail again. I have enough problems to fill a village. Also, you are welcome. I know how much I have helped you and given you a little bit of an advantage or a bit of education that you did not have before. I have communicated things that no one else did.
So where does that leave us? We laughed, we cried and now are one day closer to the grave. You know me a little more intimately and I spent another evening alone. However, since I like ending on a positive note, do you have any idea how much of a difference a 250 mm diameter torque tube versus a 200 mm diameter torque tube makes in reducing the stress on joined arms under asymmetrical loading? Probably not, but the difference is astounding!
Thank you!
I'm sorry.
You're welcome.
Just because we make mistakes (as all of us do) it does NOT mean we are FAILURES. You have to eliminate that word from your vocabulary. I am sick and tired of you discussing your failures, and that you are a failure. You make mistakes, you are human, get over it.
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