Sometimes I start pitying myself. It's a bad cycle. I have really grown to like early morning runs over the last year for a number of reasons. They are humbling. They wake me up far more than a cup of coffee. They allow me the feeling that I can accomplish enormous tasks. They also increase the damage in my legs from previous runs so that recovery is then increased and I become stronger. These runs also feel to me like a priviledge instead of an obligation. It took years for my mindset to change from morning runs being obligations to priviledges. I did not double in the mornings for about three years.
Often, things take time. The best solutions can not always be rushed. It can be hard to be patient, but it is regularly the best course of action.
Life is good. I am so blessed. I have so many gifts and so much I do not deserve. I hope that I can share my successes with others because celebrating alone is not celebrating.